I recently took a trip that involved a long drive, and
during my travels I had an opportunity to employ a GPS (“Global Positioning
System”) – you know, one of those devices that uses satellites to track your
position and, charting your location on maps with which it is programmed, tells
you audibly which way to turn (“In .2 miles, prepare to turn right on Oak
Street…Turn Right on Oak Street…Continue 5 miles….”).
During this trip, I learned that a GPS is a remarkably
useful device for navigating unfamiliar terrain. However, I also learned
firsthand something that I already knew from simply being alive in this
culture, something most drivers have known for years now: GPS devices can be
unreliable in many situations.
Invariably, there will be places where the road is
different than the map programmed into the GPS: either they’ve built a new road
or there’s construction going on or there’s a traffic jam that just makes you
want to go straight instead of turning (or vice versa), etc.. In those cases,
you have to ignore the directions the GPS is telling you, make the moves that
the situation demands, and let the device recalculate the route – unless, of
course, you want to drive into an unpleasant situation.
I’m reminded of the mildly amusing scene from the
American version of the sitcom The Office
in which Michael Scott blindly obeys his GPS and turns right…into a
lake…because “The machine knows!” (Link here. Sorry for the poor video quality:
it’s all I could find)
There’s a lesson in all of this: the GPS is useful, but
it sure as hell doesn’t beat paying attention to the road.
If it’s not obvious where I’m going with this, I’ll note
that driving a car is one of my favorite metaphors for carrying out the True
Will: navigating through life and trying to stay on one’s path even when
passing through unfamiliar territory. As with driving a car, one is aided in
carrying out the True Will by paying attention to reality (keeping one’s eyes
on the road). Now, glancing away from the road for a moment or two, of course,
usually causes no problems. But the longer one keeps one’s eyes and attention
focused on something else, the greater the chances of catastrophe.
And as with driving, there are tools that can help assist
with the accomplishment of one’s True Will. Chief among these tools is the
conscious mind. However, like a GPS, the conscious mind can easily lead one
astray if one blindly follows the call of the “machine”
Read on for more details.
The True Will, as Thelemic commentators have noted
numerous times, can be found in any moment, and, it comprises one’s natural
inclinations in a situation – one’s authentic reaction to reality – that can be
observed when one stills the mind and its distorting influences. (The
appearance of these facts in the works of Aleister Crowley can be studied here)
Yet a number of important decisions that people make are
chosen in advance of future situations by the conscious mind: decisions like
what career one is going to pursue, how one will spend that week off from work,
or even what one will do later that evening.
In such instances – making a decision before one is in the appropriate situation – one is
forced to select an option based on what one thinks the True Self will like
best. Thus, decision-making is greatly aided by forming a model of the True
Will in the conscious mind, yet it is vital that this model be recognized as
highly tentative, a model that one must constantly test against reality.
As Erwin Hessle puts it in his classic essay Fundamentals of Thelemic Practice:The role of the mind must be carefully understood in this practice. It is necessary, as we have said, for the mind to be made aware of the preferences of the self — of the will — but not in order for us to ‘know what to do’. The will is always made apparent by paying attention to it instead of paying attention to the mind. The purpose in making the mind aware of the will is not to enable the mind to make a representation of that will in order to guide us in action. Instead, the purpose is to enable the mind to assist in the fulfillment of will.
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Even if the mind can be made fully aware of the will, the will is a highly dynamic quality, and if one attends to the mind's representation of the will instead of to the will itself one will find that representation becoming rapidly out-of-date. Again, the mind must become capable of consciously formulating or representing the will, but not in order that one can ‘know what to do’; the mind is there to help one know how to do it.
To use a simple example, when deciding how one should
spend one’s vacation week, it is immensely useful to know that one’s True Self
usually enjoys spending time at a beach or going camping or visiting old ruins
or whatever.
Of course, as Erwin notes, such a conscious formulation
of the will is, at best, tentative and meant to aid the conscious mind in
assisting the will, *not* in telling the Self what it “should” be doing.
Observing the Self and inferring that it likes going to the beach and then, on
that basis, arranging a beach trip is all well and good, but without the
crucial step of then observing the Self
while at the beach and determining whether the Self actually still enjoys it one is just blindly
trusting the mind, blindly turning right without bothering to look and see if
the road is actually clear.
Since we have said that the True Will comprises the
preferences of the True Self, and since one can select actions in line with
those preferences, there may be, at any given time, a number of actions that
may be consistent with one’s True Will. Notwithstanding Crowley’s comment in
the introduction to Liber AL, that “only one act is lawful for each one of
us at any given moment,” there is no a priori reason to assume that the Will must always be consistent
with only one action. In any given scenario, there may be a handful of actions
in line with the True Will. The function of the conscious mind, then, is to
assist the Will in manifesting by placing the Self in one of the situations
conducive to its functioning (without the mind “taking over” and deciding to
run the show on its own).
An example of this idea appeared recently in the forums
of the "Omaha Community of Thelema," an online social group that appears to be
for Nebraskans interested in the Law of Thelema (but, judging from the quality
of many of the posts, don’t really have a good handle on it yet). I’ve
commented on one of the more ridiculous posts on that site once before in my
blog (see here). The poster of the example I want to use now is one “Non
Serviam,” who – if I’m not mistaken – used to post under the name “Frater
Perseverabo” (yikes) and who posted here on Thelema and Skepticism (the post I linked to above), attempting
to defend his foolish comments. It seems that this “Perseverabo” has learned a
great deal since then, as his posts are consistently the most informed and
insightful on the Omaha Community site.Let us say I have obtained the knowledge and conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel and have become aware of my Nature (True Will). Let me claim that it is in my nature to take care of the ones I love. I then choose to cook my wife some dinner. I am not foolish enough to claim it is my True Will to cook my wife dinner as that has clear associations with desire, purpose and lust for result. This action is however in accordance to my True Will as I take care of the individuals that I love. True Will is not what I do, Will is what I do. True Will is what I am and once aware of my True Will, my Will, desires and purpose are in accordance to it.
Here, “Non Serviam” is drawing a distinction between will
and actions that are consistent with that will.
First, let me point out that the terminology he’s using
to explain the distinction is not really clarifying or useful at all. He also seems
confused on a some basic points, most notably his weird idea that cooking
dinner for one’s wife necessarily involves “lust of result” (more on that term
in a future post on Thelema and Skepticism). In fact, the use of such
terminology and the labeling of one’s actions “will” or “in line with will” or
whatever is completely superfluous once one has decided to do something. The
“True Will” model is only useful insofar as it provides a framework for
decision-making. As soon as one has done something, one has done something, and
the thought that “Here I am, doing my Will!” as one does an action is, at best,
extra. It’s just a story to tell yourself so that you feel neat-o about your
actions.
But second – and more important – what *is* useful in
this post is the observation that one’s will can be defined as the natural
inclinations of one’s True Self and that a variety of actions can be *in
accord* with that will.
The only danger is in getting caught up in stories that
one’s mind likes to tell itself about the Self.
One has to be careful, and another example will
illustrate this point. Observing that “I like coffee” is a fine observation to
make about the Self, and it’s an observation that’s unlikely to mislead a
person into thinking that there is any virtue attached to it. No one’s likely
to go around with a puffed out chest saying things like “I’m the kind of person
who enjoys coffee! Aren’t I great!”
But “I like cooking dinner for my wife” *can* mislead a
person into thinking there’s some virtue in it. “I’m the kind of person who
likes cooking dinner for my wife!” one might think. “I’m oh-so romantic and
chivalrous, not like those other husbands. That’s why she’s with me and not them.
I’m so sensitive and caring.” Thoughts like these might easily lead one into
getting caught up in a narrative about the Self and following the demands of
the narrative – following the siren call of a GPS voice – rather than bothering
to look at the road.
This, then, is the problem with deciding that the True
Will is “who you are”: the phrase “who you are” too easily turns into
self-righteous fantasy. The True Will is better thought of as a collection of
preferences, none of them inherently more important than soemthing like one’s fondness for
coffee.
If one has a True Self that has, in the past, liked
coffee, then go ahead and make a pot, but be sure to pay attention to the Will,
in the moment, as one drinks it. There may well be times when one just feels
like dumping out that mug and having orange juice instead.
Similarly, if one has a True Self that has, in the past,
liked cooking for one’s wife, then go ahead and plan to make dinner – but be
sure to pay attention to the Will, in the moment, as one begins to prepare the
meal. There may well be times when one just feels like saying, “Aw, hell, let’s
go out to eat tonight” or “Let’s order in and play Cosmic Wimpout and
Innovation for the rest of tonight!” In fact, it could be that a person has a
will that authentically inclines him to leave his wife. Any of the above
actions could be the will (or, under a slightly different labeling, consistent
with the will), but these conditions of the “road,” as it were, will be
obscured if a person is diligently listening instead to the story that “I like
cooking for my wife! That’s Who I Am!” One cannot accurately perceive the will
unless one roots out prejudice in thought against any options for action and
patiently perceives what’s actually there, what the road actually looks like.
To sum up, one’s conscious mind is a powerful and useful
tool that can be pressed into service of the True Self, but one must always be
on guard against the assumption that the mind’s representation of the will *is*
the will. In sharp contrast to the thought that “the machine know!” the
machine, in fact, usually does not “know” the Will and – the conscious mind
being the fallible tool it is – one must constantly be vigilant, lest one "fall down into the pit called Because, and there [...] perish with the dogs
of Reason."
We might say, inspired by Michael Scott, that the True
Will is about fulfilling one’s preferences, whereas the conscious mind is about
murdering you in a lake. Here, indeed, the choice is obvious
wow...Cosmic Wimpout...that's a blast from the past!
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ReplyDeleteWhen I first learned how to play, I had no idea how old it was or that it is associated with Deadheads (though I guess I had no right to be surprised at those facts).
The best part of the game is coming up with house rules. You can read some sample house rules here: http://www.rawbw.com/~zio/CW/HOUSERULES.html